PFFFFFFFFFFFT... yeah right, you think I'm gonna write in my Blog? HA.

Uncomfurtable.

Im gonna start only putting stories and stuff up here cause you're too smart.

I'm weak.... and when things happen that i can't control I go deep inside somewhere and and leave my body to reconstruct me as best as possible... it never does a good job
forgive me
im so sorry

WAIT SERIOUSLY? FUCK ME. AFTER ALL THAT I HAVE TO ALSO DEAL WITH THIS. THIS IS NOT WHOA TIME. fuck everything.

"Things are gonna get better and if they don't were gonna go out and kill everyone and everything, how does that sound, huh?"

Days without it are like commercials. Pointless and repetative. I wait anxiously on the edge of my seat until the clock strikes a random time when it calls on me. I'm always ready.
I got my first reassurence. I don't know why it took so long to arrive, like a letter lost in the mail. Hearing that filled me. I was honestly taken aback. Its astonoshing... that fucking thign means so much to me... it would be, along with maybe two other things, something i would grab in a fire. Ew why do i care about it so much. Why do care about IT so much. Fuck formspring. I can't answer something like that on there. Maybe I should talk.
And then tonight, tonight was weird. I was so tired and every time I'm off my game it feels like its slipping away. I hate school cause it causes me to be off my game. And I hate being so self aware about how self critical I am. I have such a big ego. But saying that is like proving that I don't really.
I wish I could say that I don't care... ABOUT IT... but I do.

Hahaha you check this so often don't you? Its sweet.

I followed you through the park, in the jungle, in the dark, girl I've ever whoa.

Still thinking. So that's a no right?